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But I'm going to hate my job even more by the end of this week ... I'm working 60 hours this week. Insane. But thankfully I finally finished my christmas shopping ... with the exception of Kevin and the parents - is it bad that I did my friends before my family? ...

God, I just realized that I forgot to return this library book ... now I gotta spend an additional $20 and go all the way down to Toronto just to return the motherfucking thing. *grumbles* ... but maybe I can attempt to do some shopping while I'm there ... the only problem in that is that I can't go shopping my myself - I tend to spend wayyy to much. perhaps I shall kidnap tanyamaxwell ... maybe she'll want to come with me so that she can visit her BF. :P. *ahem* JAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAY

No point to this entry really ... do I ever really have a point?

love to you alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll...

Current Mood:	tired
Current Music:	feel good INC.

God, wtf's wrong with me??

http://bjfic.net/viewstory.php?sid=9796

this has to be a disorder or something ...

*hides*

Current Mood:	guilty
Current Music:	Counting Crows - Accidentally in Love

Sorry about the late update y'all. *blows kisses* Had a kick ass weekend with the lovely tanyamaxwell,</span> we went to the Con No Baka convention … or the CON NO BAKE CONVEENTION, as it said on our hotel bill. Wish I could figure out how to use photobucket thingy so that I could upload the pictures I took … many of them consisting of Bakura in various states of arousal striking different poses – in the elevator, in the bathroom, on the bed, with a leg in the air … oh no wait, that really was one of the pictures … *giggles* … although it was horrible organization, I still had fun and so did Tanya. With facepaint. :D

JAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAYJAY. *cough* -- because I’m that much of a nerd, I’ve created an icon for the occasion. :-). I’d love to give juicy details, but I’m afraid someone’s going to kill me. With her cherry lip gloss. *ducks*

On to more news, I bought all of Gravitation, orgasm-ed eleventy-thousand times a few times over the hot man/man action of Yuki and Shuichi, realized I wasted the whole day reading it, then wrote this about my experience:

I tried to resist it, but I honestly couldn’t … it was sitting on my bed, scattered in a small pile. Yeah, I know I have exams coming up … and that paper due on Wednesday … and those projects for film … but each time I glanced over, I swear I could hear them taunting me … read me … realizing that I wouldn’t be able to fight their seduction of procrastination, I gathered them up (yes, all 12, minus number 5) and attempted to place them under my bed, out of sight. Then I saw it – Shuichi, on one of the cover’s, topless, with a spiked-leather collar and a spiked-leather band wrapping around his torso, showing much skin and, to my utter pleasure, his nipples. I caved, skipped school and spent all day reading Gravitation. And now I’m done and I feel horrendously guilty, but at the same time the squealing fangirl inside of me is sated. For now.

I must now go and write the smuttiest m/m lemon possible study for my psychology exam coming up.

~Di

Current Mood:	creative
Current Music:	Kelly Clarkson - Because of You

Oh dear ...

well well, went to see HP 4 with the sexy tanyamaxwell on friday ... I had to pretend I didn't see it for Saturday night when my uncle and his 2 kids took me to see it again ... and I had to pretend that I didn't see it AGAIN when my friend dragged me to go and see it again on Sunday.  But really, it wasn't a bad film!  It was ... *diablo's eyes glaze over as she remembers *that* scene ... with Dan, I mean Harry, in the bathtub* omg, call me a pervert all you like but I was totally staring at his arms the first time, his chest and abs the second and his nipples the third.  God he is going to be one sexy!motherfucker when he gets older.  In fact, screw older, he's hot right now.  OMG! and Draco ... I think I grabbed tanya at one point ... when he was dressed sexily in black ... which was a hot look with his blond hair ... you all know I have a thing for the contradictions ;);).

And now, I have a non-date with a non-boyfriend right now.  God, I really wanna cancel on him, cuz I have a feeling he's going to be all weird and the evening is going to be filled with awkward silences and questions about what we did or didn't do.  No, I didn't fuck him.  I didn't want to.

  But I had tonz of fun with tanyamaxwell and it really made me miss the fact that I don't see her as often now-a-days ... even online :(.  But we have the con. this weekend, and I'm excited about that!!  Hopefully there will be some more hot-homo-wall-fucking-demonstrations to turn me on again. :D

*kisses*

~di

Current Mood:	anxious
Current Music:	unchained melody

Haha, well after a bitch of a week, I ended up accidentally sleeping in ... until 3:00 PM. YAY!

Can't wait to see Harry Potter with the lovely tanyamaxwell  it's the only thing that's been getting me through the week.  That and dirty thoughts of how hot Dan is going to be when he gets older ... but I can like him now, right?  He's past 16!! (ish). hehe *goes into the dark place*

Was speaking with onyxtigress late last night on msn ... she closed down the YGO site at yahoo cuz it was dead.  That got me thinking ... is the fandom dead? I mean I don't even go to AFF anymore ... or the Pit because of all the crap ... crap, crap, crap ... the best authors now mostly post stuff on their LJ ... and they're on my flist so YAY! ... but still, YGO doesn't seem dead to me ... *ponders* ... maybe that's cuz I'm so non-existant.

Haha, omg, btw, forgot to mention that this showed up in the MAIL for me yesterday: http://www2.victoriassecret.com/commerce/application/prodDisplay/?namespace=productDisplay&origin=onlineProductDisplay.jsp&event=display&prnbr=SG-189938&page=1&cgname=OSPTYSXYZZZ&rfnbr=2133 ... it was signed "Merry Christmas, from anonymous" ... WITH MY EX'S RETURN ADDRESS ON IT. *shudder* ... I'm so creeped out.  But they are quite nice - I should return the favor and order him nice 10" dildo.  So that he can go and fuck himself with it.

Spoke to the prof. after lecture ... there are 3000+ students in the class ... after the lecture half of them rush out the door, the other half rush forward to talk to him.  I was caught inbetween and kinda stood there petrified as people pushed past in each direction.  Students.  All to doped-up on caffeine.  But when I eventually got to see the prof ... 30 mins later ... he said that he'll "see what he can do".  That's better than a "sorry, fuck you, you fail".

Ok, I must go and shower now, I kinda fell asleep in the work clothes ... which are now wrinkly.  Never wear silk.  Unless it's going to be removed in the pre-sex moments. *thoughts of Bakura in a red, silk shirt* - now that's sexy.

*blows kisses*

-Di. 

tanyamaxwell

Current Mood:	hungry
Current Music:	ACDC - Highway to Hell

"After discussing this issue with Prof. Colaguri, we have decided to imput a zero for your first term test, worth 30% of your final mark. I understand that it is too late to drop this course and that this was the field of study that you wanted to get into, but such is life and these things happen"

I WAS *SICK* and I even got a FUCKING doctors note. Do they care? no.

fuck.

Current Mood:	distressed
Current Music:	the fucking silence

wow, where the hell have I been??

lol, don't blame me ... it's summer, I honestly feel as if I'm loosing track of the time ... my only concern now is what I'll be doing the next day and where I'd be sleeping at night ;).  Slept over at Jenn's house last night ... talked ALL night ... glad to say that I seriously missed out on a lot of drama that's been happening with them *rolls eyes* lol ... they all seem to hate each other ... or hate something about each other or are jealous of one another ... gah! I hate girls (don't worry tanyamaxwell you're the exception ... not that you're not a girl ... yanno what I mean, lol).

Anyways, I always knew that in my life, if I didn't have deadlines, I'd never get anything done ... along those lines, I feel really guilty about all of the ficcage I have left to update/edit and all of the ficcage that's still in my head waiting to be written (omg, some PB's have DIED and are ROTTING)

oh the horror!!

OHH, but went to see Dukes of Hazzard AVEC tanyamaxwell  and I had a blast!! (<3 to the HICKS) ... oh oh oh and the dude that's gunna play Nikki Sixx in the future Motley movie was in it ... Johnny Knoxville ... which is good because he is seriously so easy to slash ... hehehe ... *ARE YOU KISSING COUSINS??* ... ::giggles, uncontrollably::

Oh, I saw Mean Girls today ... now have irrational fear of yellow school buses for some reasons ... omg, and fake boobs *ULTIMATE SHUDDER*

Anyways, I'm now going to attempt to print out all of my chapters of Seduction ... to possibly edit ... or fix ... or remember where the hell I was planning to go with said Ficcage ...

~demonbabe ;)

Current Mood:	amused
Current Music:	Simpsons (TV)

Mmmkay, I should really update this more often ... at least I'm not as bad as ryanmikato or anything ... hehehe.

ANYWAYS, went to Toronto avec tanyamaxwell on Monday ... we went into a Vintage store on Queen Street ... bought a Bob Marley t-shirt (he's surprisingly not smoking weed in the picture on it), while Tani bought Bakura ... I mean this FAN-tabulus Bakura shirt.  Omg, it's all Blue and Stripe-y and I kid you not she started caressing it while we were in the store.  *giggles* ... oh god, the extent of our love for the fandom scares me sometimes ... but that's okay cuz it feel's good ... much like ... *cough* [I'm trying not to be drrty, for once]. lmao ...

Ohhhh guess what! ... well ... remember that thingy I wrote like AGES ago ... Seduction: The Secret Life ... well I actually planned to do a Sequel to it called The Last Seduction (omg, tanyamaxwell and I were in ... I think it was Walmart ... and we saw that title on something and omg I loved it and it was perfect for the sequel and this is a horribly run-on sentence ...) anywho, I wrote the first chapter for it today ... I'm not sure if it's okay or if it fits ... but it felt good to actually write something after so long.  I'll post part of it on the LJ tomorrow ... am horribly tired right now, lol.

<3

sweet dreams ;)

Current Mood:	exhausted
Current Music:	creed - can't remember title ...

oh. my. god. As of right now, I have officially seen every single episode of every season of Queer as Folk ... I *must* own it, I don't care what the parents have to say about that ...

but omg ... the last episode ... omg ... T_________________________T I actually had tears in my eyes

I can't even comment on whether I liked the ending or not ... my brain has turned into mush.

Current Mood:	indescribable
Current Music:	Proud - Heather Small - the last song played in the series

I realized today, at 7:24 pm EST that my parents are full of BULLSHIT.

I left my copy of The Dirt (http://www.amazon.com/gp/reader/0060989157/ref=sib_dp_pt/002-6015577-7392003#reader-link) in the kitchen. Said parents happend to pick it up, flip through a few pages, see the picture of naked Nikki the one time it actually sucked that he was naked as well as glance at few words such as drugs, sex and fuck ... and concluded that I shouldn't be reading it.

I pretty much told them to fuck OFF explained to them with a few choice words that it was my decision whether I wanted to read something like that or not.

At least I got a chance to put them in their place. I think they're beginning to realize that I really don't give a flying fuck about what they think of me - I will do, I will be and I will act however I want to because it's my life

Mmkay, enough of that self-angst I'm sorry you had to read that ... I should go write some ficcage ...

did I forget to mention that they still didn't give me back the dirt? ... they're keeping it until I clean my room. Such losers

:?

Current Mood:	pissed off
Current Music:	Nirvana - Smells like Teen Spirit